The memo

"I'm sick of hearing the words " one day your 'dreams' will come true' you hypocrites who speak so lightly of 'hope' can fuckin' die."

After all perception and pain are the same, I hope I'm not turning out like "him" even If his birthday was today I couldn't be able to say "happy birthday.." no no no... why should I? I can't accept what you're now neither the way you act, there is nothing between you and me only this thin bond... called blood but that's all.

I don't care if you die I don't care if it pains you the way I am with you, no matter how much you say "I need you" There has never been good times between you and me, there's nothing more than your hypocrite words, do you feel guilty? is that it?

"I can't sleep thinking about it if you could forgive me one day..."

"No never"

"Come with me stop being lonely, what you're doing is bad, what's happening to you?"

"I like the way I am"

"Why don't you go to parties? why don't you go out with your friends? "

"You don't care about that"

"Don't you need me?"

"No I never did actually"

I hope you enjoy your life with those people

You damn hypocrite, liar, I'll never become something like you, so "happy pain" to "you"

PsychoDrama ~ Cutting myself

Dear FoOl'S:

TODAY I've discovered 3 things!

a) life is a bitch

b) A slave to twisted memories

c) We've got no one to be... but we still "are."

starting at 3:00 pm a party for riot people social fuck riot people, at 5:00 pm time to kill the funky doll, next 8:00 pm the sleazoid game begins with riot people trying to be happy and making themselves look like idiots a manic who likes to hurt themselves, a stupid highbrow joker -- a brief talk with somebody nobody at the phone, the party dissolves at 11:00 pm and...
nothing happens

As the night went monochrome

a:hi how havexxxx?
b:fine with some newxxx
a: ah is it xxxx
b: more or xxxx
a I want to xxxx
b: what xxxxx?

ah riot riot star why do I keep seeking you knowing that I can't be close to you ?

I'm making such a fool of myself trying to think you could understand... is it too late now?

Why? I don't even know you, but it pains me so.

You don't hear me, and I'll never touch you, even if the 2 of us were alike maybe we weren't one for the other or maybe life is a bitch hahaha

how many hours has it been? you're everything I could want. but I was too late in realizing you were the one...

If... things would be different

a:It's about what can never xxxxx?
b: yes so xxx it?
a:I want to xxxxx...

yes I want to know the truth even if it hurts! I want to know it even if I have to get rid of my mind, so tell me tell me!

And... such a pity I should have never know...

a)Nothing
b)Nobody
c)Something

it made tears fall with those words...

C) despair

I understand, but I can't stop this. the day you notice me never comes. I understand, I give up.
Can the irreversible be changed?
Nothing would make me happier...
but it's better to be nothing than nobody right?

cause it's all in my mind...